A week of ups and down. Too busy to rest. Too stressed to celebrate the wins. NTC distribution. First full WOD. Broken window. 70 pushups. Iron level 7. Flat tires need replacing. First yoga class. No weight loss even though I'm dieting and working out so hard. A sincere smile from someone I respect because I did the right thing. 

To meditate brings bittersweet tears. A vision of walking through a door to a beautiful place is met with the reality of never walking through at all. 

Dreaming is he hardest thing I do.