-Rebecca Falls
Happy Monday all.
I have returned from Houston. The week was hard, yet it was quite blessed. There are a few things I want to take the time to write down, but now is not that time.
I want to write about what my brother and my mother spoke at the service - both were fitting and beautiful and from the heart.
My mother wrote the most beautiful obituary ever written. She worried so over it but it was so much "them" it was like a love letter.
I spent last week with Mom. We tried shopping and getting out a bit. That was very hard for her because they always, ALWAYS shopped together. They did everything together....for 41 years.
It was nearly impossible to leave her yesterday...alone in that house. Whatever pain I'm feeling, she is feeling a hundred-fold and that breaks my heart.
I also spent last week reading your thoughts and prayers and smiling at your comments. Thank you all a thousand times over. I did help to know that you're out there. Your comments reminded me that I have a world to go back to that is safe and kind.
Blessings to each of you. I'll be sporadic at best but I'll get my routine back soon.
Much Love,
Aggie
12 comments:
Welcome home Aggie. :-)
Good to see you, Agnes, x
Agnes, I have not checked in with your blog for awhile and decided to catch up. I am sorry to hear about your father. I hate Cancer. I hate what it does. It seems to touch everyone. You will be in my thoughts...
Welcome back home Aggie. I know about the surreal times you will be enduring from now on, sometimes not even believing what has happened. You have been and still are in my prayers daily. You are a brave girl - hugs :-)
Hi all. Thanks for welcome-home-hugs. I'm accepting all at the moment. :)
Karen, I hate it too. I hate everything about it.
I hope you're recovery has gone well regardless. It is good to know of those who have beat this evil thing.
Terry, Surreal is the exact word. I feel as if I'm "floating" through the days. Going through the motions, if you will. Then, out of the blue something strikes me and I just can't get my head around it.
Earlier today I ran across an address that is very near where Dad works....but he doesn't work there anymore. And I can't really grasp that.
Ah well, I know so many of you have stood right where I'm standing now. It's a cruel thing and my heart goes out to every one of you who know this emptiness.
I want so much to write things from the last week so I won't forget them...but I just feel so tired and unreal.
Maybe next week.
Love to all of you.
Aggie
Welcome back, Agnes. Sorry I'm a bit late, but I'm having computer issues and not much time online.
41 years...geez...it must be like ending up in a big vacuum for your mom. I hope she will be able to find her own path too. Much love and many hugs.
So glad to have you back and know you're doing well. We'll get you through this. Too bad your mom's not a blogger..we'd try to get her through it as well.
Christa, my mom was 18yrs old when they got married. Can you imagine? A lifetime. She has never, ever lived alone.
I guess I'm somewhat thankful that I did make my own way for a while. At least I have the knowledge that I can be alone. She's learning that for the first time at 59yrs old.
Linny - you are so very sweet. I got a good grin from "we'll get you through this". Rest assured that I know that very thing. :)
Maybe I need to teach Mom to blog. ;)
Christa - I'm having the worst time on your site and I don't know why.
I can read all I want but any time I click a link - WHAM! IE locks up entirely. I have to close out without commenting or anything. I'm sure it's just me and this rickety old pc.
Please know I'm thinking of you, even if I can't say so on your site.
I guess I'd better try Netscape, huh?
((((XOXOXO))))
Ewwww...hmm...sometimes I wonder if my blog is somehow connected to my laptop :p
It might be the theme, Agnes. I don't know what version you have of IE, but you might need to upgrade it. Should work fine in IE6 though.
As for your mom, yes...I can imagine in a way. Mom was the same. Except that she was the one leaving dad behind because of cancer...
It's difficult for us to understand though sinc our life is so different from theirs. The world of women have changed a lot in just one generation.
I do hope that she will be ok...and I hope that you're staying in one piece too.
Sorry about your exploding browser :p You could try to download Firefox ya know...it wont bite and you'd love it once you've installed it and used it for a while.
:hugs:
Agnes, it's Christa again...i'm on my iPAQ right now and can only post as anonymous. I've changed back my theme to an old one at AwfulSouls, so you should be able to browse it without any big disasters. I hope. Just so you know.
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