Wednesday, October 26, 2005

10-26-05 6:30 p.m.

It is cancer.
I am completely numb.

So many images are rushing up - and I am not seeing them. I am pushing them away. I will not accept them.

I have a million things to say....and nothing at all to say.
This morning the enemy had no name. I don't know which is worse.

7 comments:

Trée said...

Aggie, all I can say is I am here and I hear you. There are no words at a time like this. Please accept this ((((((((((hug)))))))))) as a pale subsitute for what I wish to convey. My thoughts and prayers are still with you and your dad. Love.

Agnes said...

Trée, that's probably the warmest, most understanding hug I've ever had.
Thank you so much. I'm off to immerse myself in fractalness. It will help me not think.

I'm afraid to hope but there is every possibility that this is only a small tumor that can be removed and we can move on.

Thanks for being here. All of you.
This blog wasn't born with these intentions, but it has brought me great people.

Autumn Storm said...

Agnes, sweetie, thinking of you and your family!
Hugs!

Agnes said...

So kind of you Autumn. So greatful to have visitors. Thank you all a hundred times over.

Autumn Storm said...

Agnes, in light of these developments, I'm feeling VERY crappy about yesterday's comment! I'm sorry!!!!!

Christa said...

Oh my...I'm so sorry Agnes :hugs:

Agnes said...

Autumn, please do not feel crappy. None of us had anything but hope yesterday. I know you were offering your hand and I certainly will take that.
I am sincerely glad that your father's unknowns have turned out well. I could never wish otherwise and I know you couldn't either. :)

Today is a new day. New discoveries. I feel better now and more hopeful. This whole mess could turn out to be small and removeable.

Christa dear, Thank you. You just keep doing wonderful things on your site that take my mind from this. I look forward to it.