Chaos...and a lot of babbling

----babbling--- I could go on for hours today about my inability to make a point.
My thought processes are so fractured that I cannot develop an image to accommodate my brain. This is as close as I could get and I assure you it isn't close at all.
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NOISE

Of late, I am having a very difficult time organizing my thoughts. It seems that all around me is noise and every voice inside of me has a different direction. Friday was the worst yet of these days. I simply could not turn down the noise. At any given time we are surrounded by sound. The washing machine, the dryer, the air conditioner, traffic, planes, the drip of the faucet, the television or radio, the howl of wind, the hum of this pc.

My grandfather has a hearing aid. He has the ability to turn off all sound.
It is not entirely right of me to envy this. And even if I had such an ability, what would quiet the voices inside?


And then I read this
"If you wish to understand yourself, you must succeed in doing so in the midst of all kinds of confusions and upsets. Don't make the mistake of sitting dead in the cold ashes of a withered tree."
-Emyo

I think I am waiting for the world to quiet down, or I am expecting to find some withered tree to sit beneath, as if that will bring me to a place of peace or center. It is high time I start looking for solitude right here where I stand. Right here in the middle of this chaos. There is so much I am not seeing just now. It is time I remember how to be still.

BALANCE